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(no subject) [Oct. 7th, 2008|04:52 pm]
[Current Music |detroit cobras]

RIP the economy. sucks for anyone who wasn't already broke!

oh, i keep forgetting this, but i'm 20 now, which is like, significant for some reason. this is officially my 20s.  maybe now's the right time to take the training wheels off.  also, when does one usually make the transition from young and jaded to old and bitter?
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(no subject) [Sep. 9th, 2008|04:45 pm]
[Current Music |diplo]


Landmark experiment to unlock secrets of Big Bang could cause end of the world, say scientists in court bid to halt it

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(no subject) [Aug. 10th, 2008|12:02 pm]
[Current Mood |whatev]
[Current Music |santogold]

watching cnn for hours last night reminded me of how angry i am about the past 4 years, and i suppose that was the point and that i'm falling for the propaganda, but honestly it was more like someone shoving celery and green peppers down my throat to remind me that i really hate celery and green peppers. 

oh yeah, on a bulletinboard in the backroom at work, they have an inspirational message posted. basically it's about never giving up, not being discouraged, etc. it resembles this list that i found online:

In 1831 he failed in business.
In 1832 he was defeated for the state legislature.
In 1833 he failed again in business.
In 1834 he was elected to the state legislature.
In 1835 his sweetheart died.
In 1836 he had a nervous breakdown.
In 1838 he was defeated for Speaker.
In 1840 he was defeated for Elector.
In 1843 he was defeated for Congress.
In 1846 he was elected for one term to Congress.
In 1848 he was defeated again for Congress.
In 1855 he was defeated for the Senate.
In 1856 he was defeated for Vice President.
In 1858 he was defeated again for the Senate.
In 1860 he, finally, was elected President of the United States.


and underneath it someone attached a post-it note saying "in 1865 his wife convinced him to see a play at ford's theater."

now, eve-and-the-apple-esque sexism aside, at least someone else remembers the part about him getting shot in the head. so, to sum up, this man failed at everything he attempted his entire life, had an abusive wife, became president of a country that was on the verge of splitting apart (for better or worse is a different argument), and then got shot.

the odds of all this happening to one guy, phew. chance is indeed a cruel mistress. it must suck having an abusive wife AND a cruel mistress.

i start my 3rd year of college VERY SOON. i have done nothing to prepare. this doesn't bother me.

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(no subject) [Aug. 2nd, 2008|11:24 am]
[Current Music |jt]

i feel like a dead star. 
worn out from perpetually using small amounts of my resources on the tiny, day-to-day necessities like fusing hydrogen particles until i collapse under the weight of everything i've built myself up to be, transforming into a terrific explosion that indiscriminately engulfs everything i come upon in a bath of cosmic flame. 

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(no subject) [Jul. 19th, 2008|01:00 am]

i don't write for shit anymore.

actually, you could probably replace the word "write" in that sentence with basically anything and it would still be true.

almost-twenty is a bad thing to be. i feel like there's so much but still nothing.

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(no subject) [Jul. 16th, 2008|03:47 pm]
i wonder if there's any particular reason that i have been consistantly unhappy for the past year or so of my life. maybe this happens to everyone? i don't know why i'm posting questions when nobody even uses this thing anymore.

i got my first real pay check from work a while back. it was smaller than i thought it would be, and it won't get much bigger. not unless i get those sales up!! but i'm not gonna try to get those sales up, and i'm not gonna complain about taxes when most of it is going towards stuff i believe in, because if there's anything more important to me than money, it's moral superiority.
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(no subject) [May. 28th, 2008|10:47 pm]
being back home is not what i expected. my brain feels dusty and clogged. hopefully, drowning it in alcohol this weekend will make things better.

maybe it's from watching sicko finally a few days ago or maybe this happens every summer, but i've been feeling more nationalistic than usual. so far i've only been expressing that nationalism by listening to more american bands, but it seems that somebody must have picked up on this and decided to give me that most american of rewards: a job.

the whole job search thing got demoralizing pretty quickly. i have a hard enough time spending an hour and a half writing down bullshit until my hand aches when i know it's gonna get me closer to having a college degree. it's another story altogether when i don't even know for sure if it'll get me any closer to that part-time, dead-end job i've had my eye on. 
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in case you were wondering [May. 16th, 2007|09:36 pm]

i'm still alive.

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(no subject) [Feb. 26th, 2007|09:43 pm]
[Current Mood |apatheticapathetic]
[Current Music |melt banana- chain shot to have some fun]

as a non-christian, or non-practicing one, anyway,  the story of the prodigal son always baffled and enraged me, so i'm not expecting livejournal to bestow its bountiful riches upon me any time soon. i'm not even expecting my Livejournal Voice (if you post a lot, you know what i'm talking about) to come back. i'm pretty sure i've even gotten rid of my thirst for internet approval. so why the hell am i writing this?

basically, i never write anymore unless i'm writing a paper for school or talking online, and neither of these are exercising my brain in the way i'd like. actually, i'm pretty astonished by how little i think nowadays. i'm one of those kids that is all like "when i graduate, i'm gonna be a writer!!" so i don't have to find a real job or ever wake up before 10, and if i don't get back in the habit of writing, that's not gonna go very well.

speaking of totally "real" jobs, at this point, i've been working at the harbor house for almost six months. i got a talking to about being more pro-active, in that i've been there longer than a lot of the other employees, but still put in about as much effort as i did on day one, if not less. it's true i'm not psyched about working there, but i'm certainly no less psyched than i am at any job; and i'm not actively NOT PSYCHED. 

i should really quit wasting my completely emotionless words on livejournal and put them to use in my fifteen page research paper that i need by tomorrow.

oh yeah, i dyed my hair semi-black. semi as in i was too afraid to leave it on for twenty-five minutes, but it's still uncharacteristically dark. espresso, i'd call it.
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(no subject) [Jan. 8th, 2007|11:31 pm]
[Current Music |lol bikini kill, what else?]

some guy sent this message to me on myspace:

I think you were in my chem class once at heritage...
and physics for about a week...

but have you by any chance ever written "screw feminists" and/or "OMG Lauren Davis - cool!" in a copy of The Feminine Mystique at Barnes and Noble?

just wondering...


srsly, i know that the whole idea of women having, like, rights and stuff is pretty lame and totally something that should be mocked, but who would care enough about me or my politics to even bother?


if anything, i'm sort of flattered that someone would think of me when they see something relating to feminism.

thank you, anonymous dumb asshole.

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